Seeking often requires brokenness. Broken habits. Broken expectations. Broken hearts. Even broken bodies. As a quote attributed to Florida Scott-Maxwell says, "Life does not accommodate you; it shatters you. Every seed destroys its container, or else there would be no fruition." You want to see with new eyes (shout out to Marcel Proust)? You think that sounds painless? No pain, no gain (shout out to the 1980s). You want to have spiritual growth? To call on the Name or to seek the Face? What do you imagine you can hold back or grasp to obtain a gift that is freely given but requires our full gratitude? Be careful. If you just want the image of a seeker or saint, buy some beads and put on an assumed air of false humility. Don't pray (through meditation or contemplation) if you aren't ready to get what you need to grow. Just assume a classic posture and fake it. No one will know.